Hi, how are you?
I’m Partha, very pleased to meet you.
Welcome, thanks for being here and thanks for reading.
So, what is this site all about?
In truth, your guess is as good as mine.
I’d love to say that I have a specific subject I’d like to talk about (although initially, YES I do), but for those that know me, well you know!
I have a tendency to start a conversation and then go off on a tangent, where I’ll end up, nobody knows.
You could say this is going to be exactly the same.
My initial purpose in creating this site was to use it as a self help/personal development tool for myself.
Allow me to explain.
My first real foray into Self Help started in January 2018.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve read a few classics along the way – Napoleon Hill’s “Think and Grow Rich” and also a couple of tasty little tidbits by Dale Carnegie.
I even went through a spell of reading the “One Minute Manager” series when I (funnily enough) first became a manager.
However, for me, my first real taste of Self Help, where I actually went further than just dipping my toe in the water, started (as I say) in January 2018.
Let me set the scene for you:
After a particularly “heavy” Christmas and New Year, a friend and I decided to give Dry January a shot.
For those who don’t know, Dry January is basically “a public health campaign urging people to abstain from alcohol for the month of January” (I got that from Wikipedia).
Typically, this will involve going alcohol free for 31 days, getting friends and family to sponsor you, and then giving this money to a specified charity.
Anyway, our Dry January 2018 didn’t get off to the greatest start…
I mean come on, we had a party to go to on Saturday 6th January.
But, following this party, we were definitely going to go “Dry” for the remainder of the month.
Over the previous few years I had been through a number of harrowing events, many of which I’m sure I’ll share with you in due course.
I’m generally viewed as someone who’s very “together”, as someone who may even be considered a “success”.
But, underneath it all, I’d say I’m ever so slightly broken. I’ve even gone as far as to describe myself (to those closest to me) as “Damaged Goods”.
In truth, I guess we’re all a little bit damaged in our own individual way, it’s just some of us are more “together” than others (definitely not me).
So, I viewed this as the perfect opportunity to work on myself and my personal development.
I took to reading a lot more during this month (25-day period).
The first 3 books I devoured were Hal Elrod’s, The Miracle Morning, plus The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober and Kick The Drink…Easily, by Catherine Gray and Jason Vale respectively (don’t judge me, I wasn’t going to drink for a month, so I thought some light reading material may help).
To be honest, I was actually really impressed with Catherine’s “The Unexpected Joy of Being Sober”, so it’s only fair that you take some time to check out Catherine’s interview on TV’s Loose Women.
At the time, I found all 3 books to be absolutely awesome. Actually, life-changing, or so I thought.
My first three self help books and I was converted.
I was no longer broken, no longer damaged, my new life starts here and now.
As I say, or so I thought.
Now I look back on my self help journey, and what I’ve been through over the past few years, my “monkey mind” (The Chimp Paradox was next on the list) seems to have occasionally got the better of me.
In fact, after reading Vale’s, Kick The Drink, I actually managed to convince myself that I was perhaps an alcoholic, or I should say that “I have a problem with drink”. And this coming from someone who had just gone 25 days without touching a drop of alcohol.
I guess what I’m getting at is, I’m not entirely sure if Self Help actually works for me.
I would even go as far to say that Self Help has potentially made my negative thought processes worse and I think it’s given me OCD (see what I mean?)
I’ve mentioned that Self Help made me think I’m an alcoholic (even though a year on, in 2019, I went many months without allowing alcohol to pass my lips, including a 3-month stint of total abstinence between February and May, as I was training for a Spartan Race, and I took my training seriously).
It also made me doubt those closest to me, and maybe even gave me a slight superiority complex.
I’m better than you (trust me, I’m not).
So, I’d like to share my journey thus far with Self Help, discuss some of the more pivotal moments, and look forward to what the future has to bring.
This will also probably explain the name of my blog – myaddledmind.com – My Addled Mind.
I hope you’ll enjoy being by my side, as much as I will enjoy your company.
This is an on-going journey where I hope that perhaps I’ll see the light (at some point) or else be taken away in a straight jacket by the men in white coats.
Who knows what’s going to happen?
Thank you for reading and please feel free to share your thoughts in the comment’s section below.
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